It doesn’t really feel right talking about this after having drunk pretty much every day this week. But when the sun comes out, so does the cider.
In January, I wrote about the reasons I decided to give up alcohol for a month. In that post, I said I would write a follow-up, and I did – just not on this blog. So I thought I’d report on what’s happened since.
Essentially, what giving up alcohol made me realise was that I was relying too heavily on it for everything. It was the answer to every question. Bad day? Friday? Sunny day? Oh, it must be time to drink.
When I first embarked on my sobriety, I thought I’d do it for a month and then go back to my old habits once February 1st came. However, I’ve been pleasantly surprised to find that I no longer rely on alcohol to make me feel like an adult.
After getting through the tough first week, I quickly realised that weekends don’t have to be spent drinking. It’s possible to go through an entire Saturday without sipping on a glass of wine (crazy, I know!). In fact, I actually enjoy waking up early on a Sunday morning and getting shit done now.
We all have a todo list as long as our arm filled with life admin, career goals and fun things that we promise ourselves we’ll get to at the weekend. But weeks and months go past before I actually get around to half the list because I was too busy having a pub lunch or lying in bed, recovering from the night before.
Now, I relish in getting up at 8 am and starting my day ticking off those pesky chores I’ve been ‘too busy’ to do.
I don’t think I could ever say goodbye to alcohol forever. I enjoy a cold glass of Strongbow Dark Fruits on a summer’s day too much and I don’t believe I ever had a drinking problem. Not one that requires lifelong sobriety, anyway.
I wanted to change my relationship with alcohol, not break up with it. I was drinking because that’s what everyone else was doing, despite the fact I actually hate getting drunk too often because I get anxious when I haven’t been productive for a prolonged period of time.
Drinking was my excuse for not getting shit done. I honestly couldn’t imagine being a person who says no to a night out or turning down a glass of wine with dinner. I’m happy that I’ve started to build a healthy relationship with alcohol that keeps me in control – no one else.
Overall, I am happy with my new attitude to alcohol. I no feel the need to stay up until stupid o’clock drinking countless drinks when I would be just as happy heading home at a reasonable hour and getting a good amount of sleep. I can stay for a drink or two without it having to turn into a full-on night out.
Alcohol will always be a part of my life and I’m not planning on changing that. I just don’t need it to be my whole life.